This morning felt like a new dawn. A new beginning.

My truth has been put out there for all to see.

And once the send button was hit… I waited.

And right away ‘ping’ … ‘ping’…. My girls were there!  My community of sisters, wives, friends, mothers…you were there!

My stomach felt tight and my hands were sweaty, but as I started to read the messages, texts and emails my heart started to fill.

So, this morning I feel blessed and strong, and to be honest a bit scared as well.  Scared because now you know. Now my secret is out.  But, I am going to put that feeling of fear in the closet for now and sit in the light for a while.  Feel the glow of understanding and caring.

And now the work begins.

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The work of change.

Change is the hardest thing.  Because we all like to be comfortable.

But I have to ask, how comfortable are we really?

Do you ever get tired? Tired of the daily facade that everything is perfect.

Because it’s not. Life is messy.  And the reason I know this is because I ask.  I dig.  I question.

And I listen and share and then… I think.

I think about how as a community of women we keep the nitty gritty hidden inside.  I know so many women who suffer.  Silently.  But every day we get up and we get the job done.  We push through and we are all so very successful.  We are Masters at this.  Don’t get me wrong.  When I say we suffer, I am by no means saying that we are weak.  We are the strongest of them all!

We are so strong and brave.

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And then one day we begin to feel the weight of it all. Our mind and body starts to give us signals that perhaps we are taking on too much.  Perhaps we have bitten off more than we can chew.

So now what?

I don’t know.

And that is what I am going to try and figure out.

That is why I am putting my truth out there.  I want you to know that there is someone else out there that is struggling as well.

I don’t have the answers…right now… but I am working on it.  And I know I am going to get better!  And if you feel any of this, so will you!!!

I love each and every one of you!  And feel so proud to have such an amazing group of women in my life!  I cheer for your happiness and all your dreams to come true.  And know that just as you are there for me, I am here for you!!!

Thank you for reading and being a part of this journey.

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