There is an irony that is not ‘wasted’ on me (no pun intended) that this is my millionth go around with trying not to drink. I know I sound like a broken record. Especially, as I try and navigate another ‘new’ beginning. To get started this time, I have been going through my blog and … Continue reading Covid vs Sobriety
There has been something I have wanted to share with you all for a very long time, and it’s bringing up all the feels…. the good and the bad. And with everything going on in the world right now, especially the global pandemic, there is no better time than now to share. Last year my … Continue reading Fertility…the ugly, beautiful truths.
Have you ever fallen on your face? Like literally? I have. Actually, I have fallen on my face many times (I’m not the most coordinated 😉) However, just the other day I fell really hard, right on my face. I was out trying to be a cool sporty mom (which I am not). Pretending that … Continue reading Take the Hand
Yesterday was a bad, bad day. Scary bad. The bad that fills you and paralyzes your being. The first sign for me is my vision. My peripheral is gone and with the narrow view is difficult to navigate. The room spins and I move to the bed to settle myself. My head begins to pound … Continue reading Anxiety During Self Isolation
I have been feeling so much anxiety about writing lately. I haven’t written anything in over a year. And it’s not because I haven’t wanted to. My mind writes a blog post probably every day. But to actually sit down at the computer and write… well I don’t know; I just haven’t been able to. … Continue reading When You Can’t Just Have One Drink …. Are you an Alcoholic?
I turned 45 last week. I took the day off work to be alone. Reflect and set new goals for myself, even though I woke up feeling anxious, as I always do on my birthday. So, to combat the feeling of dread that was taking over my heart, I decided it was best to get … Continue reading We Must Keep Getting Up
I am still struggling with drinking. But now it is just annoying. It’s there, and won’t go away. I feel strong because I am so aware of the problem, yet weak because I’m apparently still clueless as to how to solve it. I go for days and days without a drink and then I slip. … Continue reading Every Step Matters
It has been months now since I have written a new blog post. I have no excuses. Have I been drinking? Sometimes… Have I had an occasional slip up? Yes. Do I feel ok? For the most part yes… and for the most part no. More than likely I haven’t written because I feel guilt. … Continue reading From ME to WE
I am a Self-Help Junkie. Surprising…. I know! If you were to look at my book shelf, I probably own more than 50 inspirational books on how to be a better me. My quick fix for most of my problems, whether it be drinking, my marriage, parenting, my weight, finances or how to keep a … Continue reading Self Help Junkie Trying Something New
As all the sparkle and glitter settles from New Year celebrations and resolutions, the self challenges and new commitments become a list that holds fresh hopes and repetitive failures. I started to drink again. Sifting through the happiness and joy of everyone’s New Year posts I find myself bored of seeing it all. Everything looks … Continue reading Fallen