I knew this pain was going to come
Before we even parted
I felt it the first time we had to share
Share something that is ours
But now not together
How do you accept this
When THIS wasn’t supposed to happen
When seeing your child whenever you want, is not possible
Because seeing your child is now on a schedule…
I can’t even understand the line above
Sharing wasn’t the plan
The first time we separated our child was a baby
Each time he left my arms my home was empty,
I would pace
Back and forth
Like a caged lioness
Knowing she should be with her cub
I still feel the same 12 years later
Nothing has changed
Except that you are older now and aware
My sweet child
This wasn’t the plan I had for you
When you are here my heart is settled
When you are away my mind scatters
My fear heightens
My worry deepens
Even though I know these are just feelings
You are fine.
You are safe.
You are loved wherever you go
You are strong
You are a warrior
Just like your parents
This will get easier
And we will grow from all of this hardship
My wish is for us to land on our feet
And to trust that all will be well
The plan took a different route
But the end will be just as glorious
Because I will grow with you
And my sweet boy, you will grow with me.
The Female Project 
Beautifully written. Be strong and you and Logan will have a good future. You will always be there for each other. Love you. ❤️
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You’ve got this, you always have. The journey isn’t always easy but you’ve always been a warrior ❤️
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You will always be in my prayers. Never lose hope. God has tested you time after time and continues to test you. He loves you, he created you with a divine purpose and all he asks in return is to live knowing that you are always forgiven and loved. Once you live with God in your heart fully and completely he uses you to help others. Your pain and loss are lessons learned. His beautiful gift of free will has consequences. Each day when the sun rises is a new chance for change. Start loving yourself and give yourself to Jesus whole heartedly. He died on the cross for our sins. You don’t have to go to church to pray. You can pray and connect with him anytime and anywhere. The Holy Spirit inside you will grow again and take over your life and become a bulletproof vest against all your weaknesses. The devil lives within our ego. Earth is the devils playground and we are all sinners. Each one of us is continually tempted every second of the day. Just slowly give into the Holy Spirit. Watch old Billy Graham sermons on YouTube for inspiration. He is probably the best preacher of the gospel that has ever lived. Our bodies is just a costume but it’s our soul that needs holy transformation. God bless you Jen and your son Logan. Forever and Always.
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