Every Step Matters

I am still struggling with drinking. But now it is just annoying.  It’s there, and won’t go away. I feel strong because I am so aware of the problem, yet weak because I’m apparently still clueless as to how to solve it. I go for days and days without a drink and then I slip.... Continue Reading →

From ME to WE

It has been months now since I have written a new blog post. I have no excuses. Have I been drinking? Sometimes… Have I had an occasional slip up? Yes. Do I feel ok? For the most part yes… and for the most part no. More than likely I haven’t written because I feel guilt.... Continue Reading →


As all the sparkle and glitter settles from New Year celebrations and resolutions, the self challenges and new commitments become a list that holds fresh hopes and repetitive failures. I started to drink again. Sifting through the happiness and joy of everyone’s New Year posts I find myself bored of seeing it all.  Everything looks... Continue Reading →

Great Expectations & Thanksgivings

I thought I was pregnant … but I AM NOT. I’ve thought I was pregnant many times… but I WASN’T. When will this end. This dream. Hope. Expectation. Wish. Disappointment. Dread. Truth. I cannot get pregnant…. naturally. I know I am not alone, and that there are millions of other women like me, but when... Continue Reading →

195 Days Sober

6 months alcohol free has come and gone! This picture, when I saw it, truly symbolized to me the whole process of the Journey that I've been on this past 6 months. Slowing down and taking care of myself and those around me. And trying to bring alive what was once dead. It can be... Continue Reading →

The Evolution of Saying NO!

Lately, I have been finding that raising my 8-year-old son has become tiring, challenging and simply difficult. I look at him some days and wonder who the heck is he? Why is he acting the way he is acting? Why is it impossible for him to listen to me the first time? Why is everything... Continue Reading →

Truly Broken

I lie here. Broken. But this time I am literally broken. To become whole, sometimes we have to make a choice to break open the old wounds that have been slowing us down. Over the years, I have found it amazing how our body adapts to pain. We learn to move forward with suffering. Adjusting... Continue Reading →

A Not So Perfect Day

  The darkness comes sometimes when I least expect it. Getting ready for work. Cooking dinner. Writing. My eye sight starts to blur, and my peripheral vision disappears. Forcing me to focus on what is right in front of me. My hands get shaky and my upper lip starts to sweat. I begin to feel... Continue Reading →

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