I thought I was pregnant … but I AM NOT. I’ve thought I was pregnant many times… but I WASN’T. When will this end. This dream. Hope. Expectation. Wish. Disappointment. Dread. Truth. I cannot get pregnant…. naturally. I know I am not alone, and that there are millions of other women like me, but when … Continue reading Great Expectations & Thanksgivings
6 months alcohol free has come and gone! This picture, when I saw it, truly symbolized to me the whole process of the Journey that I've been on this past 6 months. Slowing down and taking care of myself and those around me. And trying to bring alive what was once dead. It can be … Continue reading 195 Days Sober
Recently it was asked of me, if I had to bet on mine and my families success, would I? Meaning, would I invest? Wager? Gamble? Place a bet? Am I in it to win it? Well, many from the outside looking in, would run away as fast as they could. Clear to them that we … Continue reading If you had to bet on yourself, would you?
Lately, I have been finding that raising my 8-year-old son has become tiring, challenging and simply difficult. I look at him some days and wonder who the heck is he? Why is he acting the way he is acting? Why is it impossible for him to listen to me the first time? Why is everything … Continue reading The Evolution of Saying NO!
I lie here. Broken. But this time I am literally broken. To become whole, sometimes we have to make a choice to break open the old wounds that have been slowing us down. Over the years, I have found it amazing how our body adapts to pain. We learn to move forward with suffering. Adjusting … Continue reading Truly Broken
The darkness comes sometimes when I least expect it. Getting ready for work. Cooking dinner. Writing. My eye sight starts to blur, and my peripheral vision disappears. Forcing me to focus on what is right in front of me. My hands get shaky and my upper lip starts to sweat. I begin to feel … Continue reading A Not So Perfect Day
There are moments in your life that will never leave you. They will imprint themselves in your memory forever. The one for me was the night my mother revealed her inner strength and showed me how to rise above the darkness. It was winter, and the snow was falling. Big soft flakes, creating a … Continue reading Thank you Mom
I am a person who loves to escape my life. In my younger days, I was the girl who used to get in the car, pop in a cd, fill up the tank and drive. Destination unknown. The songs were sometimes sad. Making me cry. Tears would pour down my face, blinding me as I drove. … Continue reading Road Trips-Therapy for the Soul
Today I don't feel alone. Today I know that there are others who suffer. Who feel pain. Who are hurting...and don't know why. Or they know why...but are trying to get better. ...Before I began The Female Project, I read a post on girlfriend's blog. I remember, I was at work and had stumbled upon … Continue reading Storm
There are so many days when I feel like I should be walking through my life wearing a safety vest, with the reflective stitching on the back, holding up a ‘Proceed with Caution” sign. I have stumbled, fallen, crashed and gone head first into so many pot holes in life, that I could be … Continue reading Proceed with Caution