The darkness comes sometimes when I least expect it. Getting ready for work. Cooking dinner. Writing. My eye sight starts to blur, and my peripheral vision disappears. Forcing me to focus on what is right in front of me. My hands get shaky and my upper lip starts to sweat. I begin to feel... Continue Reading →
There are moments in your life that will never leave you. They will imprint themselves in your memory forever. The one for me was the night my mother revealed her inner strength and showed me how to rise above the darkness. It was winter, and the snow was falling. Big soft flakes, creating a... Continue Reading →
I am a person who loves to escape my life. In my younger days, I was the girl who used to get in the car, pop in a cd, fill up the tank and drive. Destination unknown. The songs were sometimes sad. Making me cry. Tears would pour down my face, blinding me as I drove.... Continue Reading →
Today I don't feel alone. Today I know that there are others who suffer. Who feel pain. Who are hurting...and don't know why. Or they know why...but are trying to get better. ...Before I began The Female Project, I read a post on girlfriend's blog. I remember, I was at work and had stumbled upon... Continue Reading →
There are so many days when I feel like I should be walking through my life wearing a safety vest, with the reflective stitching on the back, holding up a ‘Proceed with Caution” sign. I have stumbled, fallen, crashed and gone head first into so many pot holes in life, that I could be... Continue Reading →
Here is where I am… day 22. And let me tell you, it f-ing sucks. Don’t get me wrong, I am super happy that I have made it to day 22, but it has been WAY harder than I had ever thought it would be. After the first 2 weeks, I really felt like I... Continue Reading →
I feel like I am at the beginning of a self evolution. A very slow process of self awareness. A slow reach to the light. When you have been in the dark for so long, you end up not even knowing you are there. Or, you know you are there, but the dark becomes such... Continue Reading →
Today is day three and I am going to hold myself accountable to get to day four, and day five, and day six….and more. I am sharing this, because it is hard. This journey is hard because it is a battle of the self. And no matter what anyone says or tries to do, in... Continue Reading →
Not drinking is the hardest thing I have ever tried to do. I knew that this was going to be a big challenge. But I was going to do it! No matter how difficult, I was strong enough to overcome this. But then why haven’t I stopped yet? I tell myself that every day is a... Continue Reading →
Meeting someone for the first time is universally magical. This is because you never know the impact they will have on your life, or the impact you will have on theirs. Like when you meet your best friend for the first time. Did I know that when I was looking through my backyard fence and... Continue Reading →
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